hey ____,
 
i've been meaning to e mail you for a while....i dont know why but i feel like i just need to talk to you and stuff. i just miss you. still. and by now, you've most likely have moved on, as have i, but i still think about you every damn day. and i just miss you. like that's all i can say. i miss you and love you. and im sorry if this seems pointless and i guess it is...i dont know im just kind of babbling here, this is pretty much everything that's going on in my head...a stream of consciousness i guess.
 
 i havent talked to you in a really long time, and im kinda pissed at myself for that. how are you? how's the new job? how's school? how's life? fill me in. and some of the helping hands guys come up to me at work and tell me that you were just at _______...like getting food or something. and sometimes i wish that you would say hi, or just look my way. (i mean, i dont know if it's true or not....___ is usually the one that says you were there and i can never tell when he is lying or not)but anyway i just want to be on good terms. i dont like the way things just         stopped. and thats partially my fault. i didnt even like respond to your e mail. but i still read it every now and then. and i just miss you so much. and i still think about you. and i know this is coming to you really late and when you read this i bet you'll be thinking like "wow. get over it" or "she's probably drunk" (which i am not) or something along those lines. but i just had to say something.

 
i go for my drivers test again on tuesday the 9th. and when i pass (hopefully) i would really like to get together and just talk. about anything and everything. i just want to see you. and i want to know that you're okay and that you're doing well. jesus. im crying right now. im sorry. i just need to get all of this out. if you dont read all of this or respond back that's okay...i just had to do this. it's been bothering me for so long. i miss you. and i keep saying that. i really do. i miss you so much. and just so you know, _____ sucks. im still "together" with him, i dont really know why, but i am. and he is boring. but i havent really moved on from you. sometimes when im with him i just want it to be you instead of him. and i feel really lame saying that because its such a cliche and i know i should have moved on completely by now but i can't. i just love you so much. i really do. im so lonely without you.